Relief

There are times when you have these clashing thoughts in your mind, like blogging is not me, but yet a few days back I decided to blog, and yesterday I decided to get rid of this blog. But, though I don't like to share, I don't like to give up on things that I start either and hence the decision to keep it going.

Yesterday was a wild day, a day I felt myself back again, the wild ride where you don't want to stop at all, just keep following the contours of the road, people stare at you, cos you're an alien in their territory, the cold breeze gushing by your face, being clueless; not knowing where you are, the relief that if lost, you never have to return to the mundane, sad life waiting back there. The ride of introspection, realizations, conclusions and happiness.

Throughout the ride all I kept wondering was what was it that was bogging me down and could not come up with anything wrong with my life, am still the same girl, full of life, with dreams and goals. All I was worried about was someone's future. But isn't it future, their future, their decisions and their consequences to face? Am not a part of it, and when they are least concerned why should I go about warning and trying to change it, just to be ridiculed. If I really care I should concentrate on today, try to make it better, to give them strength to face whatever they face tomorrow, and promise to be there whenever they need me. That's the way and that's how it should be...