I've always been a person who simply shuts down when it comes to emotions and complications. Other's feelings and emotions become a priority. What I feel and want go hiding somewhere, so deep that sometimes even I don't know what exactly would I have preferred in that situation.
But last week was different, I made a list of what I always wanted to say to people and couldn't because at that moment their happiness was important to me. And with the list, I made a decision to meet those people one on one and have the courage to say it on their face, whether it was love, hate, regret, concern, warning. Small sentences like, 'I'd still like you to be my best friend', or 'I still love you', or like 'Your girlfriend is a total b**ch, and I don't like her, the sooner you call it off the better', or 'I would have appreciated it if you cared about my emotions too', or 'I'd like you to call me babes again', or 'I'm really proud of you'. Short little sentences, but they had a great impact. For once, I said what i really felt and wanted on people's face and didn't rely on letters and poems. I looked into their eyes and said 'I love you'.
Results of course were amazing. I have my best friend back, one of my good friend called off a miserable relationship he was into, I got lovely warm hugs and kisses and from last 3 days I get messages addressing me as Babes, from a person who first coined the name for me. I got it all, all that I wanted, I just had to ask for it...
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