Sometimes we need a nudge!

It's been a long time since I have been wanting to do a few things. But, I have been lacking motivation to take them up. Take this blog for instance, try as I might am not able to be a regular here. 

And no, am not talking about cleaning the house or pampering myself. For those who know me well, know what a cleanliness freak I am. It's the other things in life. The opportunities, the creativity, the motivation to do something different. 

Yesterday was one of the days when the husband happened to come back home early. Yes, he's busy these days. Gone are our good old Goa days when he used to be back home by 1. These days he comes back around 6 and though I do have a lot of time thanks to the short cut meals in his absence and the entire day to myself  I tend to manage to have no time for these things that need my attention for a long time now.

I guess my husband has been noting this change in me for a long time now. I used to be this ever so energetic, always upto something sort of person. If nothing I will start cleaning up the cupboards and gadgets and boxes. I needed something to do constantly. But, now it's different. I have to admit I have become lazy. The cleaning is still on though :), but other things have taken a blow. 

Yesterday, when my husband casually happened to mention the same, I kept quiet for a while, muttered something non-sensical and continued with the day, with the thought somewhere lost in my mind. But, then today when I sat in front of my laptop to start my day again, his words came back to me. Slowly and hesitantly I picked up some work I have been shelving aside for a long time. Few hours into it and I already started having these dreams that I used to have long back where my imagination will run ahead of me and I will work fastidiously. So, yes for a while I seem to be getting back on track again. Hope it continues. Maybe I just needed that little nudge. Maybe we all do. Whatever that makes you do it...

Did you call for something?

In the world of Facebook and Whats app and all the social media available on the smart phones, the relationships couldn't get worse. Like a mobile phone was not evil enough that we had to find more reasons to cut ourselves from real conversations!

I am not a very social person. I hardly keep in touch. But, the days when I do remember someone, or call someone, I mean it with all my heart that I called because I was missing them. And it's not always a call. Sometimes I drop in a long mail or message or anything that comes to my mind to break that long silence.

Of lately not once or twice but thrice it happened that during one of these getting back in touch calls, people ended up asking 'You called for some work/help? Ya aise hi (Or Just like that)?' !

I was taken aback. I am not the kind of person who makes friends thinking how can they help me in future. Yes, I am at times selfish in the way I make friends and I guess I have been open about it earlier as well, I like people I feel I can learn something from. I like people who I feel inspired from or intimidated for some reason or the other. Because it gives me a challenge to get better. So, yes am not denying that I am selfish when it comes to picking friends, but it's never to use them or to get something done by them. I will try everything possible on my own before turning to someone for help. So, yes it felt bad. And then coincidentally I overheard a conversation my husband was having. And let me tell you he's a total opposite of me. He's very very very social. He loves to keep in touch. It's quite annoying but you will always find him glued to his phone. Often it would happen that you will keep talking to him and he will keep looking into his screen chatting away with others only reacting 10 minutes later, when you have lost all context of what you were talking about. So, the point am trying to establish here is that he's the kinds who's always in touch. And yet, in one of his catching up calls the person at the other end ended up asking, 'Yaar yeh sab chod bata kya kar sakte hai hum tere liye?( Hey, forget all this, tell me what can I help you with?)' A very subtle way of saying cut the crap and tell me what did you need me for that you had to CALL? And then it dawned on me, that the fault is not in me or my intentions, or in not keeping in touch or keeping in touch. It's the way the priority order of communication has changed.

For every small little thing you can tweet it away, for an elaborate status with fun filled pictures to be shared there's Facebook, for every second discussion there's Whats app and like, in absense of internet connectivity simply drop a message, for official work drop a mail, for shopping why step out when I can get it online? So when the phone rings, you are like 'pakka kuch kaam hoga (I am sure he/she needs something)' .

So, to confirm my theory I started observing the next few calls I got. And other than family each and every call was for some help/advise/work? I was shocked! The definition certainly has changed. And I am left wondering that should I change the way I get back in touch or should I just stick to the calls and be questioned every time and answer in negative and carry on with my catching up stories....