At times people just love to stretch things beyond limits for no reason whatsoever. Like this friend of mine, ok we had this tiny tiff about the most natural things on this earth, we were pissed at each other and didn't talk for a almost 10-15 days. I mean didn't talk at all. But as far as my definition of love goes, its very much unconditional, its not about possessing, owning or calling you mine. Its not that if you said you love me, you have to marry me, or if we were together for sometime means we have to be together always. People change, relationships change. Life is just a struggle to find happiness and love is to see the person you love, happy, be it with you or someone else. Today he's with someone and he's happy and am happy with that cos despite of what happened I still love him in my own way, and want to see him happy.
So yesterday, I wanted to put everything aside and embrace my friend again. Share his joys and happiness. To share the chemistry and how it made us work towards good ends. SO I mail him, breaking the long silence, requesting him to put it all aside. Well no response, then I call him up, first he picks up and pretends he doesn't know who's calling, then quickly changing to things, this and that, he says he promises to be normal again. I haven't experienced any of that normalcy so far, the same friend who used to message me, ping me, call me to let me know what's up without eating up my space. And strangely I don't see any reason for it.
But then this world is funny, you never know what goes on in people's mind... Bah...
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
All I need...
Everyday we learn how to live,
is it all about when to smile and deceive?
Or keep giving, with no expectations to receive?
Would it matter if I'm there,
will it make a difference,
Or am I just a fool,
confused trying to make sense?
People make mistakes and get away,
When will I be lucky enough to leave that way?
Li'l pleasures of life,
they come and go,
only when I ask for them so,
Is a li'l love coming as a surprise asking for more?
Times am weak,yet pretend to be strong,
'cos I don't want them to get me wrong,
its not you, who's breaking me inside,
but it hurts to confide,
all I need is a li'l assurance,
without the regular nonchalance...
is it all about when to smile and deceive?
Or keep giving, with no expectations to receive?
Would it matter if I'm there,
will it make a difference,
Or am I just a fool,
confused trying to make sense?
People make mistakes and get away,
When will I be lucky enough to leave that way?
Li'l pleasures of life,
they come and go,
only when I ask for them so,
Is a li'l love coming as a surprise asking for more?
Times am weak,yet pretend to be strong,
'cos I don't want them to get me wrong,
its not you, who's breaking me inside,
but it hurts to confide,
all I need is a li'l assurance,
without the regular nonchalance...
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Calamity and cleanliness...
Few days back in our photography class, we were going through these presentations where everyone had to come show their favorite five pictures and explain why they liked them in a few words.
One of the pictures and its explanation struck me. It was totally different from normal perception of things, or so I felt. It was a picture of empty rain swept road, with a bent tree, maybe due to the heavy wind at the sight, giving out an image similar to the images broadcasted on television after some torrential rain or a tsunami has hit a place. Now oft such images would trigger a sense of depression, sadness, helplessness or sympathy in someone, but this barren picture that stood in front of me, just appeared plain clean as if the road and trees have received their much awaited shower, the road being the slick clean body and the water dripping trees the wet tresses after a lavish shower. And strangely a similar thought was mentioned by the girl showing the picture taken by her. Though it was a shock to know that someone saw the same exact thing in something that I saw, cos it often happens that I end up seeing some weird things in something that maybe people can't relate with. But, keeping all that aside I suddenly realized that we were exposed to a completely different emotion by that picture. Cleanliness, positive calmness, peace are some words one would hardly associate with a calamity. In fact antonyms of all the above would rather go well in describing a calamity. Its strange how human brain thinks and associates emotions or should I say strange emotions to things they see...
One of the pictures and its explanation struck me. It was totally different from normal perception of things, or so I felt. It was a picture of empty rain swept road, with a bent tree, maybe due to the heavy wind at the sight, giving out an image similar to the images broadcasted on television after some torrential rain or a tsunami has hit a place. Now oft such images would trigger a sense of depression, sadness, helplessness or sympathy in someone, but this barren picture that stood in front of me, just appeared plain clean as if the road and trees have received their much awaited shower, the road being the slick clean body and the water dripping trees the wet tresses after a lavish shower. And strangely a similar thought was mentioned by the girl showing the picture taken by her. Though it was a shock to know that someone saw the same exact thing in something that I saw, cos it often happens that I end up seeing some weird things in something that maybe people can't relate with. But, keeping all that aside I suddenly realized that we were exposed to a completely different emotion by that picture. Cleanliness, positive calmness, peace are some words one would hardly associate with a calamity. In fact antonyms of all the above would rather go well in describing a calamity. Its strange how human brain thinks and associates emotions or should I say strange emotions to things they see...
Monday, February 1, 2010
Intimacy in today's world
I was just going through some random images and infographics on internet, when I came across this particular image which reflected the 10 levels of intimacy used in today's world, which ranged from twitter to social networking sites, to calls, emails and messages.
On going through the whole list I realized that there were a few even am used to using. The means being SMS, emails, letters listed in the order of their prevalence of usage. And suddenly I realized that these were all written modes of expressing myself, where I was nowhere speaking out the words of how I feel, I was using the medium of write ups to convey my messages.This made me wonder, why am I avoiding the means that require to talk or actually express myself, one to one, what I feel, what I really want to say. Is it the fear of being rebuked or not having the power to edit what you communicate? Or something different altogether? Why can't we express the same anger or distaste in front of the person and resort to reason it out through mails? Or why can't we say the same 'I love you' to that person when he/she is around but can text it with an unquestionable ease time and again? Is the current generation totally losing out on the fundamentals of how to communicate, entering a totally virtual world where emotions are subsiding into oblivion? We often hear cases of online meeting up and breaking up, isn't it very strange sort of way to express how you feel about someone? Can it ever compare to the impact of the same expressed one to one looking into your eye? So many questions and no specific answer. Coming to think of it just a few minutes back I messaged 'I love you' for the third time in the day to someone, whereas I've never spoken these words in front of them ever. With this I vow to try and say the same in front of them, will I be able to do that, when they are around? God only knows! Thanks, to this virtual world, for killing all my one to one communication skills!
On going through the whole list I realized that there were a few even am used to using. The means being SMS, emails, letters listed in the order of their prevalence of usage. And suddenly I realized that these were all written modes of expressing myself, where I was nowhere speaking out the words of how I feel, I was using the medium of write ups to convey my messages.This made me wonder, why am I avoiding the means that require to talk or actually express myself, one to one, what I feel, what I really want to say. Is it the fear of being rebuked or not having the power to edit what you communicate? Or something different altogether? Why can't we express the same anger or distaste in front of the person and resort to reason it out through mails? Or why can't we say the same 'I love you' to that person when he/she is around but can text it with an unquestionable ease time and again? Is the current generation totally losing out on the fundamentals of how to communicate, entering a totally virtual world where emotions are subsiding into oblivion? We often hear cases of online meeting up and breaking up, isn't it very strange sort of way to express how you feel about someone? Can it ever compare to the impact of the same expressed one to one looking into your eye? So many questions and no specific answer. Coming to think of it just a few minutes back I messaged 'I love you' for the third time in the day to someone, whereas I've never spoken these words in front of them ever. With this I vow to try and say the same in front of them, will I be able to do that, when they are around? God only knows! Thanks, to this virtual world, for killing all my one to one communication skills!
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