Decisions

Well we all make decisions at some point in our life, some major, some simple everyday ones. But, these decisions somehow make a big difference in future and sometimes have some serious repercussions.

I don't say I have never made wrong decisions, but I kind of feel blessed when it comes to making them, a little trade secret that can't be shared. Hehe. Also, last few months have revealed that all the decisions where I have sacrificed my happiness for someone else's have been one of my best decisions, well atleast for myself.

Last one week I travelled and met up with almost everyone I had left behind for some reason or the other, well let's call it decisions, some theirs and some mine. And what I saw and heard from them was simply surprising. I know am noone to judge right and wrong, but the one's who were right were doing really well and the one's who had wronged me, left me, or I sacrificed for their happiness were in a way paying their dues.

At times it broke my heart, it took a lot of effort to get over the shit I went through to get over the pain they caused me, or the voluntary sacrifices that I had to make, and the only pacifying factor was that I was doing it for their happiness, which seemed lost. It made me question myself. Was I right in leaving them behind? Was I right in never looking back? Never trying to ensure that they are actually happy or not. But, then isn't it their decisions? Didn't I just oblige to whatever they asked for, without thinking even once about what I want? But, coming to think of it, once or twice I tried and was just given a cold shoulder cos at that moment they were happy and proud of their decisions. At the end of the day it's all very complicated. The key is not to question and just let it flow. Life just balances things for everyone, someday, someway.