What your heart wants...

I feel majority of the times when we are suffering, is when we deny ourselves what our heart wants, instead of being denied what our heart wants by someone else. Most of the times, we are the culprit.
It could be due to societal pressure, or the fear of hurting someone, or personal bias and fears. But, I have always been a believer of what my heart wants, because I think, that if your heart is not into it, if it's there and yet wants something else, pines for it, or even for a brief second of time, thinks of something that it doesn't have, then that's what it wants. And denying it that, is a big crime. With all this, you'd never do justice to what you're up to, cos somewhere deep inside, it's not what you want.

Something similar happened to me, I took a decision, or rather obliged to a decision, cos at that time, all my heart ever wanted was other's happiness, my happiness was secondary. But, it's human to have feelings of your own, the heart keeps wanting something or the other. And yes, sooner I had expectations of my own, so much that my heart desired, and I had to keep denying myself. That robbed away all my happiness, you cannot concentrate anywhere, cos time and again your mind keeps running to those 'deep hidden inside the cover' thoughts and it bothers you.

Today, for a change I had the strength to listen to my heart, stop denying it what it wants, and went and openly hugged my friend. And those few seconds were bliss, I am not sure if the feeling was mutual, but yes, for a brief span I saw the smile that I've been looking for from days altogether. I don't know what's the harm in loving someone, caring for someone. I think it's one of the most beautiful feelings. And you know you got it, when a look of that person stirs your heart, when you make efforts to know what's up at the other end, when you make conscious efforts to be in sight or out of sight. You know you're in love, and denying yourself the pleasure. I'd say don't. Cos if you're doing it out of some fear, be it of results, repercussions, struggles, trust me you'd regret it at some point of time, and would never do justice to yourself.

So, if you have someone you really care for, do not think of the consequences, accept it, grab it, before it is too late.