Inspiration

Some days are plain simple lazy, where you seem to be in control of everything, time, work, emotions, people, life in general. You have all the time to pamper yourself, yet you have time to meet people, socialize. Just be yourself, and not running around, to either meet the day's expectations, or running from something, intangible, like emotions and mental clutter.

These kind of days just feel so nice. They happen when you are at peace with yourself. When you have absolutely nothing to lose, or nothing to regret. For me, it happened today pretty unexpectedly. Suddenly, I had all the time to listen, think, love, care, dance, enjoy a lovely shower, clean up my room, and other mundane things. It was always a part of me, but it seemed lost somewhere, because so far I was just too messed up in my head. with this tension and that. From last two days I've been indulging. Indulging in everything that my heart wants. From sleep to ice creams to hugs to back to back movies. I wonder when I stopped living the way my heart wants to? And now that am living that life again, trust me life seems a lot better, happier, and worth it.

I would owe this to a poem written by a friend, when he wanted something and did something totally opposite, just because he couldn't see tears, he denied himself, what he really wanted and eventually regretted it. Sometimes we do learn from others mistakes. Don't know if I have the freedom to share the poem here, but I can share the lines that touched me the most.

You are not sad, cos you made someone happy,
but happy YOU are not,
life maybe a good bargain,
but it'll never be what you sought!